i have to say that i love you's are not meant to be answered back when you decided to tell it to everybody...yes, they can be felt.but when you expect too much in return that's when things go wrong.

people around me are not meant to think the way i think and once i expect them to be like me, i simply disappoint myself.reality check.reality check.

I had myself thinking that it was okay. it was okay to have a second choice.or worse: to be THE second choice.. whatever.but no, it was never okay. it is absolutely the most stupid thing i had myself thinking. it's even more stupid to still like that person despite everything that happened. I ignored all the signs that told me this was not a good idea.

I have decided to let it go, to change my way of thinking, to see beyond my limits.

i have decided to open my eyes to the reality that it is impossible. it has always been that way. i just have to set my standards and my goals to something sensible and something that can make me a better person.

so goodbye stupid feeling.i guess a week of isolation can bring me to better thinking.whew.

thanks to you,my friend. i miss having someone to tell me what i am doing is not making sense anymore.to shake me and get rid of all the stupid ideas in my head.thank you so much . love lots. i promise to act normal but also to resist.hahahaha!!